The Valley

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow." --maya angelou

I feel the need to write a difficult post that I have needed to write for a while.  Most of the time I blog about happy moments, moments of joy, the up's of life, but I feel that sometimes it is important to be transparent, to be vulnerable.  Now, don't misunderstand it is a not a post of self-pity, but a post of personal healing, of personal process.  

I'm in a season of change in my life, a season of transition where people I thought were going to be there for the long haul have fallen short and left me to drive the cart on my own.  I am a firm believer that the Lord places people in our lives for specific purposes.  Some are there just for a season and some are there forever.  Don't get me wrong I have the forever kind of people in my life, my husband, parents, sister, but over the past year or so I have experienced a season of challenge with other people in my life.  I feel betrayed, hurt, lonely at times, and misunderstood by certain people.  To be quite honest I often feel defeated.  

As most of you know, I'm pretty passionate about relationships and when they don't work out it's extremely difficult for me to move on.  The emotions rise up and fill my soul, they command my attention and leave me broken.  The Lord brings us through the valley so that we can see the mountain.  I feel like the Lord is calling me to move forward, to start anew when it comes to these issues.  I have a strong sense that I cannot let my past continue to invade my present.  I cannot continue to let these people rent space in my head and in my emotions as they have for awhile.  

I have to trust that the Lord is bringing a new season with new relationships.  I have to purge these people.  The happy memories will always be dear but new memories are calling.  It's difficult, but necessary for healing.   I have to continue to seek relationships that lift me up and I must keep trekking through the valley...for a new season is on horizon.